I walked in the door of the hospital. I wasn’t sure where I was going or what I was doing. I held my husband’s hand and tried to appear calm but in reality I was screaming inside. Am I really here? Flashback to January 1, 2014, the day of “the picture” that showed me just […]
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The other day my friend Jaime placed a photo on my Facebook wall and after a grueling 11 mile jog I saw it and burst into tears. A good, sappy, blessed, full tilt Ugly Cry. The picture was titled The Iceberg Illusion and it reads success is an iceberg. The top of the iceberg is […]
I wrote in a previous post about my weight but I didn’t share any “before” pictures. I think the concept of “before” leads to an inevitable “after” but there really is no after in weight loss. It’s lifelong process. There will never be an “after” for me because I will always have a love of food. It’s something that I have to manage and it can be tough.
The best place to start is the beginning. I started gaining weight in the sixth grade. I noticed it but I didn’t think much of it until I had to go for my physical for school. I got on the scale and it said 148lbs. The nurse scrawled something on my chart and gave it to me to bring to the exam room for the doctor. She wrote “Grossly Overweight.” Not just overweight, not just chubby, but Grossly Overweight. I was so embarrassed and for the first time I realized that my weight was something that people noticed.