She Believe She Could… Kinda

I love the R.S. Grey quote from the book Scoring Wilder:

She believed she could, so she did. 

Despite the book’s controversial content, the quote has taken on a life of its own inspiring women everywhere. 

After the past few years with weight loss surgery, losing a lot of weight, trying new and adventurous things like flying trapeze, and culminating in finishing the NYC Marathon People often share this quote with me and I love it. But there’s an element to that statement that isn’t true at all. 

I never believed I could do it. I tried and tried and tried to lose weight. Thirty years of being obsessed over my weight with countless attempts and ultimate failures. I was actually the last person on Earth who thought I could! 

In my video on how I lost 250lbs I spoke about the importance of faith in my weight loss. As a Christian, it was easy for me to turn so many things over to God but my weight and food issues I held in a tightly closed fist that I wouldn’t let God enter. After a setback in my process for weight loss surgery, I heard Him loud and clear: 

Try again, Regina, this time with Me. 

In that moment I felt something switch. It all seemed to click into place. I opened my hands from that fist and relaxed into Him. I gave my weight, my issues with food, my shame, and my fear of failing again to Him. 

What happened next was like driving down a road with a ton of red lights and just like the movie Bruce Almighty they all just turn green and stay green. I was able to take on whatever came my way because it wasn’t me at the helm anymore! 

This week in church our pastor spoke of Philippians 4:13

That is the ultimate truth. God provides the strength! I may have the WILL but the POWER is His. 

It took many years before I truly embraced the power and the promises of God. There are many more mysteries of Him that I’ll probably never unravel. What I do know for a fact is that my life has been infinitely better since I opened my heart and accepted Him,  breathed in grace, and exhaled praise. 

The quote should really be: 

Jesus believed she could, so she did!